the moment i knew
- Aadya
- Feb 9, 2020
- 1 min read
You are all my thoughts
The words I long to say out loud.
You are all the unanswered letters and tears soiling my pillows.
The unsaid words and unsolved fights.
So much of what I love but not mine at all.
This is an open letter.
I have never loved anyone as much as I loved you and that love doesn’t just go away.
It lives in my cells, the pain I feel everyday and mostly in memories I have of you.
That’s the flaw of falling in love with me.
Yours will die with you.
My love for you will live on with me, with everything I say.
Everything I see and write.
You will be the cold place in my head,
the precedent for anyone else I will love.
I will write you into my sunsets and the walls of my home.
I wish things were different.
It’ll take another life because I can’t survive losing you twice in this one.
All my love bleeds over into my poetry,
For people who dont care.
I have built galaxies for strangers,
Sunset skies for people who don't care
And nothing for myself.
Maybe that is why artists go crazy inside their heads.
They make muses out of others before themselves